What do I need to be notified about? One of my friend ate chicken for dinner? My mother finding a new puzzle-game that she likes? Or another friend have posted images of her new dog?

These are examples of things that I get notified of sometimes via social networks. Every time I get exited about it, but after reading it, it feels like a waste of my time. I mean, isn’t that time spent on anything better? It is, but I haven’t found that thing yet. I haven’t found the thing I really want to do with my free time.

I know that my job is stressful. A lot of things keeps happening at the same time and there is not a job where you can perform tasks one at the time. People call and needs stuff done that I can’t queue and coworkers needs some things done that only I am capable of doing.

I don’t mind helping people, but I’m getting to a point where my todo list is unmanageable. Things pile up and don’t get done in reasonable time.

For now, I think that I need to alter my work habit to include some quiet time where I just perform tasks without getting interrupted. The problem with this is that I can only do this in the evening, but that is okay with me as long as it is not every day of the week.

I just wished that I could reduce my work without working 13 hours a day.

I have been employed for about 2.5 months now and it is nice to be able to buy the food that you want. But as I see it now, it comes with a downside: Overweight! I don’t know the correct amount, but just by looking myself in the mirror, I can see the result. It is not my proudest moment in life.

But why eat so much food that is not healthy? For me, it is time management. It is a lot faster than cooking at home. I’m not a fan of cooking and I’m not very good at it. But also that I don’t have the energy to put into it.

I have a quite stressful job, and I often take the stress with me home, so there is a high possibility that I want to create dinner as quick as possible. But as I see it stress is your enemy when it comes to cooking. Good and healthy food is not created fast, it is created with a sense of mind and focus. I just don’t know how to do that. Every day when I get home, I feel that food is just an obstacle between me and the bed. I don’t enjoy food as an activity like other people.

I know that I want to change this, and I know a lot of the theory behind how to change this, but I just don’t want to listen yet.

When watching other people, I often think “How can they do all that, and not think about it?”. What I mean is that often people do things without thinking about it. They just do it.

When I try to do stuff, it is rare that I perform them without thinking about them for a while before. And when I perform them, I can think about totally other stuff and not focus on the task at hand. This is common for all of us sometimes, but for me it is more common than rare.

I just can’t focus on the things I do. When I actually can focus on the task, I can’t let ANYTHING disturb me and I need to finnish it before starting something else. Finishing something later is not an option for me. Then it will never be done.

I am terrible at multitasking. I can perform multiple task, but each task individually  is performed poorly and not with any energy put in it.

I just want to be able to do something that I can be proud of, and perform it with focus and not let it slide away just because I can’t focus on it.

My girlfriend decided a couple of days ago that she wanted to learn software development. I have done some software development in school and worked with it for some time so I thought that I could help her when she bump into problems.

After talking with her and helping her, I realized that there is a lot of things that I take for granted about programming. One perticular thing that comes to mind is just defining objects and state and behavior. I think that it is so simple to do, but after explaining this, I realize that it is not that easy for a person that doesn’t think in a programming way. I mean, how do you explain methods and setting internal variables in objects? It takes a lot of time and patience, I tell you.

But one thing that I admire is the passion that she brings to the table. She really wants to learn and reads and reads and reads about it. And there seems to be no stop in her!

I really admire that, and it is something that I want to do in the future. Nowdays, I can’t find that passion to do the rings I love to do, because I can’t decide was that is, and I can’t allow myself to do them.

Time to restart this blog. Why? Because, a blog should contain experiences and information, not empty posts about random stuff that I don’t in the long run care about.

I also want to promote the blog so that others can read it and maybe learn from it or something, I don’t know. And I have learned something from other bloggers. It is not the spelling or the theme that creates the blog, it is the content and realism of the content that defines it.

So, lets see where this will lead me.